Writer’s Block

Writer’s block
Or in my case mind’s block
I do not write stories, I write my own thoughts
And my mind is blocked
I can’t get myself to think, nor to write
As I write, I forget half the words
Or I feel like all I’m saying is pointless or
Doesn’t make any sense

Being stuck at home,
Living these crisis,
Feeling hopeless
Are being shown in my work
And I know I am not the only one
I know that a lot of people
Writers or not
Are going through the same thing
The same feeling
That is why I am writing this
To tell everybody that
You are not alone
And this too shall pass

- Eleonor, Aspire, Tannoury

Be Kind

They teach us to behave
They tell us what to do
What to think
What to feel
They tame us
They make us one of them
But have you ever noticed that
They barely know themselves
Yet they tell you all you need to know about
The others
The different
They barely know what they want
Yet they tell you the intentions of
The others
The different
They barely get in touch with their emotions
Yet they know that the others hate us
Want us eliminated

What a weird world
What a weird society

As they teach me who I should be
I look aside and see a flower
A wildflower
Fierce, free and beautiful
How wonderful
To live peacefully
To love and accept everybody
So in this world full of mud
I’d like to be a flower

- Eleonor, Aspire, Tannoury

Emotions

Some days we wake up feeling blue
Some days we don’t feel like living
Some days we just want to sleep
And it’s okay if
Some days we are not okay

Don’t be too hard on yourself
When you don’t feel good
Don’t be too hard on yourself
When you’re sad
Don’t be too hard on yourself
When you are not yourself

On other days you feel like the Earth can’t contain you
On other days you feel like your heart is so warm
Full of hope and energy
On other days you feel so alive and so full of yourself

And that, my friend, is life

- Eleonor, Aspire, Tannoury

Dear Someone

I can’t get to you

I know you are around 

I know you are searching for me

I know you want to tell me something 

But I can’t find you

I feel your presence vividly 

But I can’t touch you

I see you in my dreams

But the vision is so blurry 

I hear your whispers

I turn around to catch you

But you’re gone 

I don’t even know you

I’m searching and waiting 

For you to find me

- Eleonor, Aspire, Tannoury

Metaphor of Life

Imagine yourself walking down the street
suddenly you realize that you are lost
you don't know how to go back to your house
you don't know where you are
It's getting dark and you're getting scared
what do you do now?
you need a place to sleep
you are probably hungry
you look around and you know nobody
except maybe this man standing by that tree
you've seen him before, maybe in a dream
you feel connected to him, as if you've known him all your life
you go up to him, you'd like to talk to him
see if he recognizes you
well, he doesn't, but he seems nice
you two are having an interesting conversation
he asks a lot of questions, and you don't mind
you ask him where you could spend the night
and he offers you his home
you decline
you don't want to rely on anybody
you know you left your home searching for independence
you're not going to fall into the hands of anybody else
you have to find your own home
the home you want, with the walls you've chosen, and the garden you've taken care of
you remember why you left, but you don't know where you are going
it's all dark around you
you are scared and confused
you can't go back to your parents house,
for you don't want to give up
for you don't know a way back
you have never been this alone
and you should know that
The journey to self discovery is a long and lonely one
but the sun at the end is so bright
you'll forget every tear shed
Do not give up on yourself
keep searching, keep learning
open your mind to new horizons
explore all the routs you find interesting
get out of your comfort zone
and Grow

- Eleonor, Aspire, Tannoury

Courage

Take this time to
look at yourself
look at your life 
from a different perspective

Take this time to
reconsider who you are
what you want

Do not be afraid to face your reality
do not be afraid to look at your mistakes in the eyes
this is what courage looks like

Face the truth and do whatever it takes to fix it
do not live a life you don't want
do not give up on your dreams

Look at the top of the mountain
and climb it
step by step, little by little
Just do it
even if in fear

- Eleonor, Aspire, Tannoury

sorry

I am sorry
I can't help you
I listen to you because I know
you can't tell your secrets to someone else
I try to understand everything you say
I try to listen
but
sometimes, all of this is overwhelming

I am tired now
my ears hurt
and my heart aches

I can't help you
I don't know what to do
I listen and I try to understand
you ruined my birthday because you were angry
and I didn't say anything
I tried to understand

Now that I am tired
because of your problems
you can't listen
you don't listen
you don't understand

I am tired of being your punching bag
I am tired of being your diary
I am tired of being someone you tolerate hardly
I am tired

- Eleonor, Aspire, tannoury

You Have a Choice

I need to get all the tension out
I need to forgive myself
For the way I see the world
I need to accept my past,
Fold it,
And send it back to the universe
Being stuck there has made me
Fruitless
Unable to see the present
And its blessings
Nor the future
And it's possibilities

Who has the right to tell me
Who I truly am
Beside myself?
Who else knows what goes on
Inside this head of mine?
Who else knows my struggles
My anxiety
My fears
And the courage I have to
Wake up everyday
And fight my own demons
All alone?

I can feel the fire
Rising through my veins
As I imagine all the opportunities
And all the ideas
That could be found in the future
Soon, the lockdown will be over
Soon, we will be back outside
To where life really is
Soon, everything will be back to normal
So I tell you,
This is your chance to choose
Which normal is worth going back to

- Eleonor, Aspire, Tannoury

Goodbye!

you mean nothing to me
this is not the first time you hurt me,
but it's going to be the first that I
don't give you second chances anymore
you've been lying to me for so long
and I believed every sorry
every "she means nothing to me"
every "come back to me"
I never realized that
you never loved me
not a bit
not even close
not at all
all I am to you is
a girl who gives you enough attention
a proof that you mean something
a proof that you have some kind of worth
I always thought I had a special place in your heart
I always thought, someday, you'll look at me 
and see your whole world
This was all in my imagination
This was all a fantasy

You replaced me so fast
in a blink of an eye,
another girl came by
and took you away
in a blink of an eye
you accepted to throw me out
and cut me off
you mean nothing to me anymore
and I feel sorry for you
you have lost somebody who loved you dearly
I got rid of an impostor
Good riddance  

-Eleonor, Aspire, Tannoury